Monday, August 21, 2006

Questions...


























Photo by - Endevourme

I love to travel. It gives a lot of time to think.
But last few days of travel has given me lot of questions.
Life is changing , good thing is it is changing for better. So with this change, questions too have changed....

We think, we believe in our thoughts, our emotions,
but what if all this thought foundation turns out to be untrue?
Why is that sometimes i can see things crystal clear, while some other times my vision is clouded?
Was it really a good decision to postpone some of my desires just to keep up my mental balance?
Is it correct that i ignore my wounds, just giving them time to heal by themselves?
Why i connect to nature, music and people easily when i am sad?
Why i feel more balanced, more sane, more composed when i am not happy?
Is it correct to be happy, when i am away and disconnected from my family?
Why i am so merciless to myself?
Why doesnt it hurt, when i purposefully manipulate my emotions?
Isnt family as important as food, shelter, and clothing? if it is, why dont i feel so?
In KanakaDurga temple, why did i pray for others, when probably my own problems are bigger than theirs?
and in Tirupati, i didnt pray at all saying, "HE knows everything...."
Why now-a-days tears just refuse to come when i need them?
Why is that when i see others happy, i become more happy than they are?
Is it correct to be happy with bare minimum needs like good food and a place to live?
Is it correct not to dream, saying that expectations give pain later?
Why i am afraid of my own self when i am alone?
Why i am unhappy, when i am not happy? why i dont feel "nothing"?
Why i am extremly sure and clear of my priorities when my priorities are different than that of others?
What is the reason of the mental immunity and ruggedness that i have?
Why even if i am so emotionally fragmented, still so strong?

22 comments:

endevourme said...

...
the beach in the pic is in chirala in A.P.
chirala is really a very nice and clean place to be :-)
open sea....sand....winds...

Seema said...

Beautiful golden sands...
Some questions we always are finding answers for...

Aditi said...

Beautiful picture.. i like how part of the sand appears shaded and the rest heating in the sun.
You raised some good questions, I think most of us ask ourselves those at some point in our lives. Unfortunately its a gruelling path that leads to the answers.
I hope you find yours soon

Has to be me said...

thats just toooo many ?s...take care dear & hope u find the right solutions...just trust in Him & for sure I think u shd be more merciful to urself & love urself all the more! U r a wonderful person.
Take care......

endevourme said...

#seema
ya the sand here is very fine one.
if you stand inside the sea, and when the wave is going back, u can feel sand moving below your feet...
its such a nice feeling :-)

yes.... but the point is 'we must ask the right questions'

#aditi
thank yu :-)

erlier i had questions and i was finding answers for them,
i didnt find all the answers,
but now the questions themselves have changed...

#Has to be me
/-thats just toooo many ?s...

...yes it is...

/-take care dear & hope u find the right solutions...

...hey i am alright...and yes i take good care of myself...thanks for the wishes..

/-just trust in Him

...i am just doing that....

/-& for sure I think u shd be more merciful to urself & love urself all the more!

...i am a bit careless, i am strong no, maybe thats why i dont bother...

/- U r a wonderful person.

...thank yu....

/-Take care......

thanks da, i do ....:-)

chitra said...

Please do not get your life complicated by asking too many why's.

Take life as it is and enjoy it.

endevourme said...

#chitra
but...but....its not easy naa :-)

Has to be me said...

BTW, u r tagged

endevourme said...

#Has to be me
thank yu :-)
btw i finished it in ur comments section itself....

nirmala said...

hiii...:-)after long huh so many posts to read n comment
nice pic hope u had gud time in chirala..but so many questions?ull find answers as it goes..ur life......b kool

endevourme said...

#nirmla
nice to c u back :-)
the trip was nice, such a clean and beautiful beach,,,
wonder on earth.......
i am planning a post on it.....

n_i_d_h_i said...

how are u doing? where all did u travel? long time....

RT said...

Lovely pictures here too..:)

endevourme said...

#n_i_d_h_i
after looooong time ha? nice to c u back :-)
i am fine, i travelled a bit in AP, tirupati, vijaywada, chirala etc
and my native too....

#rt
hey arti thank yu :-)
i think photos really fade in comparison to reality...

Shankari said...

Mmmmmmmmmm, didn't read a word of what you wrote.


The picture is *pretty*. :)

endevourme said...

#shankari
thank yu da :-)
nice place to sit and relax

Shama & Diya said...

Mindblowing questions!!! Infact thought provoking, some answers you know, some you find, others are better left unanswered.
- shama

Shama & Diya said...

Hey, we put a post on one of your questions.

endevourme said...

#shama & diya
ya and interestingly, when i was ur age i had some set of questions...
i didnt find the answers for some of them but with age questions are themselves are changing...
so dont bother too much of questions hee hee....

chocolteluva said...

like many ppl here said -- all of us ask our selves these Q's at different times in our lives.

i know some of those Q's apply to me right now. hopefully u'll find ure way out soon =).

endevourme said...

#chocolteluva
thank yu for the wishes :-D!

wish yu too find yours soon...

Anonymous said...

hmmmm...first aand foremost, its important for every creature to be happy..that's what we all strive for. that happy state of existence..and try to fix whatever's broken, is taking us away from that...maybe that's the whole point...till we figure out what's right and wrong and not just for ourselves..
maybe.