Sunday, December 09, 2007

3 monkeys & a coin of gold...






















Photo by - Endevourme

I dont know what wishes will come true or whether they will come true at all. i am feeling hopeless. sad. feels like its final. dont know whether i will survive till the end. hopes, they carried me till here but now i am losing patience, desire, and will to go on like this. maybe its not worth, living like this. it always seemed wrong somehow from the beginning. now i dont want hopes, i dont want omens, i want results. give me answer of wrongness, why?is it really good to be so much self sufficient? i feel like a blind man, walking... searching....afraid. there is so much uncertainty. i am tired of being blind. want to see. tired of imagining. it just doesnt satisfy me. what had i done to get this? do i deserve this?


'Some random exerpt from my diary, i dont know the exact date. These are the times when i hide and think and recover. Now-a-days i rarely feel like this, erlier it was quite often. Life too strong to get drowned in this small pond of sadness :D!!'

12 comments:

Endevourme said...

thats dew on grass :D!!
as usual, i took this pic in pune...hehe

Solitaire said...

So you hiked..as a blind man...exhausted yourself...and now have come to a better point on your hike. Keep walking! You will find several companions on the way who will make it easier.

dharmabum said...

a small pond of sadness. way to go, brother!

Endevourme said...

#Solitaire
companions, ya one way u r correct, but two half people dont make a complete relation ship :D

#dharmabum
hey! after long time haa?
now there is so much sunshine that all ponds are drying up naa thats why, hehe :D!!

Gillian @ Indigo Blue said...

Pune is calling my name!
We have all felt this way. All of us. We come out of it, we weather the storm of emotions. Sometimes we look back and wonder why we let it bother us so much...
I think when we do feel this way, it's best to just hang on and wait. The feeling eventually goes....
xo
Gillian
(Great photo!)

Endevourme said...

#gillan @ indigo blue
/-The feeling eventually goes....
so true! it always goes...always..and then we wonder why we allowed it in the first place!
:D!!

Michelle said...

tht pic is so beautiful!! and its taken in pune wooo!

Endevourme said...

#michelle
thank u very much Da! we have a mini garden in front of my house :D!!

dharmabum said...

yeah, long time, bro. been awfully busy. finally managed to write, one of the longests posts!

glad to hear abt the sunshine! don't get sun burnt though :P

Endevourme said...

#dharmabum
sunburnt hehei will put sunscreen haa... :D!!

write often naa!

Chitra said...

Love this snap! Soooper !

Endevourme said...

#chitra
hehe...thank yu :D!!