Sunday, March 18, 2007

Me to myself...




















Photo by - Endevourme

I want to go, far far away. Dont know where. When you will read this, I would have already gone. Wanted to go away, always, away from you. You are a fool. A very sweet stupid fool. You loved me, cared for me, did so many things for me. But I have to go. This was a game. I started it and always took it as a game. But you were a fool, a sentimental fool. You played honestly maybe too honestly. But i pretended. Always. Now my heart is heavy but understand me. Its necessory that I quit, cause i dont want to fool you anymore. I know you will break down, cause I know you are nothing without me. But I have to go, because I am not you, I never was. You fooled yourself. And I know you will forgive me, cause you know I will be free and I will be happy. Isnt that what you always wanted? Always. Love is like that. Complete in itself. So dont cry, remember its just end of a game, a stupid foolish game.

35 comments:

Endevourme said...

pic i took in pune, sunset :D!!

Aditi said...

beautiful pic.. for the writing i get the feeling that its the same person.. the one leaving and the one being left behind..
but well written.. for in the end love is a game..

Endevourme said...

#aditi
thanks :D
ya correct...its me to myself.

Sujit said...

nice :)

chocolteluva said...

love the picture..
the writing, i had to read it twice to figure some things out, but i liked it.

Endevourme said...

#sujit
hi da, thanks :D

#chocolteluva
its difficult to understand it i think, because it seems vague :D
thanks...

dharmabum said...

u can run, but u can't hide. no way.
nice sunset!

Shankari said...

so do u often post these messages to self??

Endevourme said...

guyz be careful before reading my posts haa, cause past few days people surrounding me are getting strange emotional disturbances, for unknown reasons :-)

#dharmabum
means?
run...hide....from whom...?...
thanks :D!!

#shankari
haha...well...everyone does this talking to self,
u to do, dont u?

Sujit said...

so where are you now? still at bangalore or pune?

Endevourme said...

#sujit
neither,
i am at bengalooru hehe :D!!

dharmabum said...

arrey from yourself, dear ende!

Asmita said...

so ruthless thy nature,
how much i envy you :-)

Endevourme said...

#dharmabum
arrey that happens naturally, and i am not running away,
i am helping it to disintegrate...cause it has become a hurdle...
i want something higher,something more natural and genuine to take over...
and interestingly, sometimes when it comes to survival, my-self also runs away from me :D

#asmi
haha, i think our abilities are mutually exclusive!

Keshi said...

wow clever post!

**cause I know you are nothing without me.

so ur not gonna be honest anymore? That wud make u nothing again, wudnt it?

Keshi.

Shikha said...

i have come here after a pretty long time..and i first thought something has gone wrong:)..nice post and nice pic

Endevourme said...

#keshi
thank yu so much for coming here :D!!

first and most important thing is all this was a game,
and we never take a 'game' seriously isnt it?

Yes i agree that we need to be honest, really, its required,even in a game.
but now i want to end this game so it is final 'The End'

and i was always complete, always. That is how humans are made.
only that we forget it later :D

#shikha
ya after loong time :D!!
thank yu...

chitra said...

:)

Pritika Gupta said...

hmm.. it was slightly confusing.. it was from u to u only.. thnak god.. i thought some kind of breakup mail ;) Man let me tell u never write such things to urself..as ur heart who luvs u most will get hurt..:(

Endevourme said...

#chitra
:D!!

#pritika gupta
nope, if its real love she will understand me
and let me go too :D!!

Deepthi said...

Now that was profuse.."U are nothing without yourself and that you is the soul..leave it behind and it will haunt you till time come..."

Seema said...

That picture is a beautiful click...

supernova said...

Beautiful pic!

Insightful writing! :-)

Endevourme said...

#deepthi
only ghosts haunt, but ghosts dont exist in reality,
they exist only in ur mind :D
so no haunting-wanting...

#seema
thank yu :D!!

#supernova
thank yu so much for coming here :D!!

Marie said...

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Marie said...

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Sophie said...

sob


sniff

sob

sniffle

deepti said...

now u got me all teary eyed...
Well u r right n ur wrong...
But no matter what, love is not a game,serious or stupid...
Nice pic by the way...

Ekta said...

wow...loved the post..came at the right time...just voiced exactly how i feel...

Endevourme said...

#marie
thank yu so much :D!!

#sophie
sniff sniff sniff sniff.... hehe

#deepti
haha...i never said love is a game, i meant to say life is a game.
i think thats effect of previous comments :D

#ekta
after looong time haa :D,,,i want to break free!
thank yu...

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Endevourme said...

#rock dweller
thank yu for coming here :D i'll try...

Rock dweller said...

There is alot of truth in that.

Endevourme said...

#rock dweller
hope u dont mean that here we dont have truth :D

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