Silent...

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Reflecting silently...endevourme...

Smiling buddha - part II

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My version of smiling buddha :D

I smile a lot and i smile naturally, i mean very few times i force myself a smile. When i was a kid, my first set of teeth was very bad. I used to look really funny when smiling. But finally i got good teeth like my mother has. Have you ever seen a sweet girl in bangalore with loong silky hair, cool dark black eyes and traditional clothing?

If she is smiling then may be its me!

When i first saw this picture, to my surprise, i found myself smiling!

How about you? How often you smile?

...

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Some selected quotes of Ayn Rand -

The only power any government has is the power to crack down on criminals. Well, when there aren't enough criminals, one makes them. One declares so many things to be a crime that it becomes impossible for men to live without breaking laws.

Force and mind are opposites; morality ends where a gun begins.

Every man builds his world in his own image. He has the power to choose, but no power to escape the necessity of choice.

Do not ever say that the desire to "do good" by force is a good motive. Neither power-lust nor
stupidity are good motives.

A government is the most dangerous threat to man's rights: it holds a legal monopoly on the use of physical force against legally disarmed victims.

The smallest minority on earth is the individual. Those who deny individual rights cannot claim to be defenders of minorities.

God... a being whose only definition is that he is beyond man's power to conceive.

Evil requires the sanction of the victim.

So you think that money is the root of all evil. Have you ever asked what is the root of all money?

It only stands to reason that where there's sacrifice, there's someone collecting the sacrificial
offerings. Where there's service, there is someone being served. The man who speaks to you of
sacrifice is speaking of slaves and masters, and intends to be the master.

Achievement of your happiness is the only moral purpose of your life, and that happiness, not pain or mindless self-indulgence, is the proof of your moral integrity, since it is the proof and the result of your loyalty to the achievement of your values.

Achieving life is not the equivalent of avoiding death.

To say "I love you" one must first be able to say the "I."

Making curry...

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We eat curry, all of us do. If you dont then probably you live a life where everything is different and whatever i am writing may not make sense to you.
The world we live in has lot of people. Too many of them. Some of them know how to prepare curry and only few can make a tasty one. To make a tasty curry you need to get the formula right. You need vegetables, you need spices, you need salt etc etc. And you need the right proportion.
There are some good things about the world we live in. One of such good things is that the principle of proportion which works for curry, also works for our life. Instead of vegetables, spices n salt etc we have family, career, god etc etc and remember that proportion and balance is more important than the ingredients themselves.
Amazingly, its very easy to make bad curry than a good curry and also that these days nobody wants to do easy things. And also if few people can make good curry then few people can make good life. Check others, if their curry is spoilt then may be you have a good chance. There is something more special about curry. Smaller the quantity better the taste. So prepare your curry only as much as you need. Dont overdo. And dont take everything seriously as overcooking your curry also spoils it. Already feel that your curry is spoilt? doesnt matter cause very few people make it better than you have done and few people have life worth calling life.
When i started making my curry i had something in mind but it went bad somewhere but i did some manipulation and now its some different kind of curry. But its tasty. Tastier than what i had in mind when i started making it. And it was fun. It wouldnt be fun if we start with a formula and everything goes smooth isnt it? it would be so predictable and boring, like cooks in hotels, they make tasty food but they hardly like it. I think being cook is like being god, its so boring being god. And yes, taste is what we want isnt it? how easily we forget that our main aim in life is to be happy!

Waking Up...

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I am waking up...bit by bit...to reality.
And it is much much better than what i had imagined.

Committed...to life

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We keep running for many things in life thinking that what we are doing is correct. And then after some time we feel that no this is not enough its not taking me anywhere and i am just not happy. And then we look inside and we think spirituality is the key and we start running behind beliefs and theories. But again we are running. Running...running...running...
i too did the same. i was running because others were running. i knew that nobody else is happy but no i didnt want to listen and i kept going and going. Somewhere down the line i was exhausted i was dead tired and i stopped. Then i looked back and found that i was much more happy at the place i began and i was just being so stupid running all this time. May be...purpose of life is just life and nothing else and just because we need some drama, we keep looking for some other purpose in life. The happiest person i have seen in my life was my great-grandmother and she was happy because she was always fully commited to life. When i stopped running and became more involved in life i am finding that yes this is what i wanted and the most courageous and purposeful thing is to face and accept life as it is, to accept neither positively nor negatively but as it is. We love nature, why because its so full of life, its so juicey, so involved and so committed. There is so much love and so much power. Its real cause real love is never weak, its always strong. Powerful, nurturing and self sufficient.

In a soldier's mind...

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Once again i want to stroll along those lanes,
the green fields, the cool air, with fallen leaves rustling below our feet and birds chirping their sweet nothings...
one more time...just one more time...i want to call your name and see you turn to look at me, the sparkle in your eyes and sunshine on your face and live forever in that complete moment.
With all the warmth and life in my eyes, i long for you,
...behind enemy lines...for the one waiting for me in the green fields beyond...
so much i miss you...

Buddha...same smile, a different face...

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Times change, faces change but the smile remains the same.
All that we want...is peace.

Smiling buddha...

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The clock keeps ticking.

Sun rises and it sets.

Seasons come and seasons go.

There is birth and there is death.

Things are created, things are distroyed.

But between this creation and anhilation, life celebrates.

Buddha knows ... and thus he smiles ...

Lead lady

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When I was young they told me to sit straight. To sit still, To sit in a corner, To sit with my legs together, To sit with my legs crossed, To sit demurely, To sit with my shoulders squared, To sit with my chest out, To sit with my head down, To sit quietly, To sit so as not to attract attention, To sit with the girls, To sit in a row, To sit on the back seat, To sit and not to stand, To sit because others were sitting, To sit and just listen.
Now , Nobody sits till I do.

This is Van-Heusen ad in Times of India. Many things apply to me except the last one because I am still very young. The Lead Lady in my family is still my grandmother. After independence things have changed a lot. Fortunately grandpa kept the business running even after losing estates to the government. He keeps me asking 'why you have to work there?'. Its not that I am needed there as business is handled by dad n brothers. But some day I will have to go back to 'The Family' but as of now, enjoying freedom :-)

And it rained

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Yesterday evening it rained and it poured. I even managed to get wet.
We have no electricity at home, hope it comes back in time.

But despite all clutter it brings, i love rains. How about you?

Warmth...

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Please forgive me if you dont understand this post.
More than six months have passed after i wrote this. And I am realizing that there can be many more dimensions to confusion. Life has started coming nearer and nearer to me but its also becoming more and more strange. Things which were too obvious to me have started looking like preplanned coincidences. There is too much change and too much warmth surrounding me. So i am afraid. Life has become like a drawn bow, I fear that it will fall apart. There is a soft tension, like a taut string. And it vibrates. I can almost feel its sound running on in the background. Till now i considered my life as normal but seems it was not. There was still much more activity going on in the background always, for me. And now i am just becoming aware of it. Life has always supported me, for basic need, that of survival.
But this goodness sometimes stays remote from me. It stands away and just stares at me and then my heart pains. I feel like a child away from its mother. It erodes me, like waves of ocean taking out land, bit by bit, eating it away. But may be that is what life wants from me. To erode away things which are not real.

Life supports life, and i think i am realizing it.

Still waiting...

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People see GOD,
in a grain of sand...

I found GOD,
in a drop of water...

Waiting...for rain

Me to myself...

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I want to go, far far away. Dont know where. When you will read this, I would have already gone. Wanted to go away, always, away from you. You are a fool. A very sweet stupid fool. You loved me, cared for me, did so many things for me. But I have to go. This was a game. I started it and always took it as a game. But you were a fool, a sentimental fool. You played honestly maybe too honestly. But i pretended. Always. Now my heart is heavy but understand me. Its necessory that I quit, cause i dont want to fool you anymore. I know you will break down, cause I know you are nothing without me. But I have to go, because I am not you, I never was. You fooled yourself. And I know you will forgive me, cause you know I will be free and I will be happy. Isnt that what you always wanted? Always. Love is like that. Complete in itself. So dont cry, remember its just end of a game, a stupid foolish game.

Aiming high

My idea of perfect lifestyle is old fashioned,
but thats the way i am.

Lucky me

I want to be...

that girl at the top.

Ants

My dreams

and Me

Retro...

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My 51st post!

Its been a long time and so much this blog has changed over time.

I started learning photography and at the same time i started this blog too.

My main aim was to showcase photos, (yes i know that i am a bad photographer :D)

but i tried writing things which as and when came flickering in my mind.Erlier i had enough time and energy to write things but now i have little and little time and its becoming more and more difficult now-a-days.

I am curious about what people feel about me and this blog and is there anything that you would like to change about this blog.

Happy blogging :D!!

Unparallel...

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They were a happily married couple, expecting their first child. As everyone has, they too had expectations and dreams about their first child. Soon they came to know that they were going have twins. It was double the joy at the same time a bit of anxiety too. If everything could work properly, they would be a happy complete family, but something went terribly wrong somewhere...and only one of the child survived.It takes so much courage to see your first child dying, and its so much agony that there is nothing you can do about it. They swallowed the bitter truth trying not to speak about it trying to forget this pain. After two years, god gave them a chance, again twins but this time daughters.They were born, both healthy and fine. Unfortunately wrongness repeats itself more often than rightness. The girls survived almost one month. Then one of them got some kind of fever, the other one picked it up too. Things went worse and the fever defeated both of them. After one year a son was born. He was alright and healthy and grew well. But things kept going uniformly wrong with him. Most of his life was a struggle, even things that are ordinary for normal people used to get uneavenly wrong with him.He was born after three deaths, deaths of three children. He wouldnt have been born if erlier ones had survived. Was this the reason for all the things going wrong in his life? If the children had survived, probably they could have made better life than he had, and does this question really matter,because doesnt everyone has a right to survive?Is there anything called destiny, do we really have choices or life is just sequence of coincidences dominated by unfulfilled wishes and pain from the past?

Taggology...

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Me doing a tag for first time, may be it will brush up ur ideas abt how Me is :D

My Favourites
Favorite Color
Pure black, white, green, i think i like all colours no bias here.

Favorite Food
I am a veggie, and except bhindi i can eat anything.

Favorite Month
All of them are good in their own way.. (is this getting wierd?)

Favorite Song
hmmm...thats a difficult question cause there are soo many of them n i donno which one to choose!right now its 'roxette - it must have been love' on my winamp

Favorite Movie
lot many...now what comes to my mind is 'roja'

Favorite Sport
TT, i dont quite 'like' cricket

Favorite Season
Here too no bias! everything happens in nature has a purpose isnt it?n its soooo beautiful!

Favorite Day of the week
Monday maybe cause it puts me in strict routine once again.

Favorite Ice Cream Flavor
Vanilla, plain n sweet :D

Favorite Time of Day
Depends, with whom you are, where you are,tho i enjoy being alone too :D

My currents
Current Mood
Sleepy…the tag is getting me tired!

Current Taste
I need tea...n its late today.

Current Clothes
formals…

Current Desktop
An IBM machine

Current Toenail Color
Natural(whatever it is 'cause i am wearing shoes)

Current Time
9 at morning

Current Surroundings
my office! creative n beautiful, i tend to enjoy this place, its more like a holiday resort :D
i naturally tend to adjust to so many things...

Current Thoughts
I thought i will never do a tag, it reveals so much abt me ;-)

My Firsts
First Best Friend
My mom tells tho i dont remember...a girl in my neighbourhood...before i started schooling, she used to come to our house,i used to cry after she had gone :(

First Screen Name
mmm....???

First Pet
Cat - Yendi, dog - moti then came Chendi n Mendi, next generations of Yendi, a dog Tina, n many more...

First Piercing
Ears...i dont even remember when they did it...

First Album
Photo album...?hehe

First Movie
was it shehenshah? i think so, i was so small,n funnily i was scared of shehenshah itself...

My Lasts
Last Cigarette
I live in no smoking zone

Last Drink
Pinapple juice at night yesterday n lots of water...

Last Car Ride
From office to home

Last Movie Seen
Dor

Last Phone Call
To home

Last Book Read
My lovers lover (dont take it wrong guyz. i get easily bored by romantic novels)

Have You Ever Broken the Law
never

Have You Ever Been Arrested
na

Have You Ever Been on TV
naa

Have You Ever Lied
many times, it comes so naturally!

Thing You've Done Today
can waiting be called as an activity?

Thing You Can Hear Right Now
some girl murmuring somewhere...

Thing You Can't Live Without
Nature

Thing You Do When You're Bored
I usually dont get bored, very comfy n natural n calm n sane life i have n ppl envy me.

3 PEOPLE YOU CAN TELL ANYTHING TO
No-one, No-one and No-one.

2 CHOICES
1. Black or White
Black

2. Hot or Cold
Cold

1 THING YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE
many of them n here is a list probably u have seen already :D!!
http://endevourme.blogspot.com/2006/07/pond-of-dreamz.html

Colours...

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Scenes from movies etc that i like...
Pyasa - Gurudatt saying 'yeh duniya agar mil bhi jaaye to...'
ROJA - at the ending when 'the terrorist' tells arvind to go...and the flag scene too...
Swades - SRK crossing river in a small boat, surrounded by people, calm bluish waters of river(very very deep...isnt it?)
Hum dil de chuke sanam - at the ending when aishwarya rai says goodbye to salman...(i am so happy!)
The terminal - "just say that you are afraid to go back to your country and you will be free"
tom hanks - "i am not afraid of my home"
Terminator 2 - "The future, always so clear to me, has become like a black highway at night. We were in uncharted territory now... making up history as we went along."
Bombay - song - Tu hi re.....oh dear, it wretches my soul!
Vaastav - song - teri duniyaa hain muzmain kahin, its so sweet...(the movie is too poor i havent watched it)
Shabd - song - chahton kaa silsila (mmm...cinematography!)
Dahek - song -saawan barse tarse dil....(ooh the rains....)
Meenaxi - song - yeh rishta...(colourfullll....)
I also like Des Raag ( which comes only on Doordarshan )(remember "baje sargam har taraf se"?)
...these are just a few of them, there are so many more... :D!!

Closed door...

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The door was open and i saw you. Standing there in a complete moment.
Windy days...with shy smiles and stolen glances.

But i was fooled by puzzle of choices, pulling me to unknown places.
I come back to see you here again,
but now the door is closed and its too late.

But i know that you exist, somewhere, someplace on this beautiful earth.
At another open door, waiting, may be for someone else.

Time can fool , time can heal, but time can never take away...the frozen moments.

But Time says,
"its not over yet ,
life is not a single piece, just to be called 'pass' or 'fail'.

Just wait and see 'cause your heart is true
......love will find the way...."

Beats...

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Sun is tired and afternoon is dragging by...calmly n quietly....
cup of tea in my hand, helping me,to see n to understand...

i hear,the quietness, and to unknown connections calling me

......come to me....come to me......come to me......

streched out empty corridor...

empty space, just to be, just to stand, to feel my heart beat

...........i am alive........i am alive........i am alive.............

Its so much fun being beautiful, isnt it?

Time...

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I dont know with what instinct i wrote my past few posts, but they had something to do with the future. Future that exists today, in my own life. I try not to write anything personal on my blog so please forgive me for the limited information i present here.

Now i dont even remember how it started. It makes me shiver even to think of these days, the days of darkness and dispair. Like a curse, this one dark black thing ruled our home, our family.

It ruled every aspect of our existance,suffocating every bit of life. Every moment of joy had its shadow. It was like a sad melancholy, a haunted symphony running in background. And we struggled, sometimes standing, many times failing. We kept ourselves, a duty, that we must live. We lost unlimited other things, priceless things which will never come back.

This curse ruled us for eleven years...
A few days back, for second time in my entire life, i said this to HIM,"This time you are not going to fail me..."

Yesterday, i got the call,"We won!". I couldnt at first speak for a few minutes. So much joy, so much relief...

Finally the spell was broken... by another much stronger spell.

Now i am learning, to live without this burden. Slowly trying to forget that the war is over and its time to heal.

The dark, cold night is receding...and there is faint reddish glow on horizon.

Certainly...nothing lasts forever...not even bad times.

The nice and the good...

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Two symbols of past,
an ancient temple , an old tree...

It is the faith, its is the roots that makes them stand.

How long shall we last?

coooool...

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cool afternoons,

relaxed Me,

centuries old temples,

structures in stone,

quiet corridors,

wide spaces,

old familier smells,

am i dreaming? or i am truely awake?

Burdens..

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Why we think that it is necessory always to be happpy...?
and that we always need to have an opinion?
Do we always need to label everything we see as good or bad?
Do we always need to compare or judge when we meet a person?
Is it so much necessory for everyone to be always smart, young and beautiful?
Is it always necessory to pray when we see GOD, why not let him just be?

Why not just remove this burden of being perfect,
when we know that perfection is something impossible...?

Why not just accept that we are mortals, not GOD
and that being mortal is what makes us human...?

Dry Flowers...

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My tea's gone cold, I'm wondering why I got out of bed at all

the morning rain clouds up my window and I can't see at all

And even if I could it'd all be grey, but your picture on my wall

it reminds me that it's not so bad, it's not so bad

I drank too much last night, got bills to pay

my head just feels in pain

I missed the bus and there'll be hell today

I'm late for work again and even if I'm there,

they'll all imply that I might not last the day

and then you call me and it's not so bad , it's not so bad

and I want to thank you for giving me the best day of my life

Oh just to be with you is having the best day of my life

Push the door, I'm home at last and I'm soaking through and through

then you handed me a towel and all I see is you

and even if my house falls down now,

I wouldn't have a clue because you're near me

and I want to thank you for giving me the best day of my life

Oh just to be with you is having the best day of my life
- Dido

To A Butterfly...

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TAKE A STEP OUTSIDE YOUR SHELL

TO DRINK THE SECRETS OF THE WELL

NO LONGER WILL YOU FIT INSIDE

THERE'S NO MORE NEED TO RUN AND HIDE

IT'S EASY NOW TO BE YOURSELF

AND SET YOUR FEARS UPON A SHELF

TO CLOSE YOUR EYES FOR JUST A THOUGHT

AND RECONSIDER ALL YOU'RE TAUGHT

WISHES MADE WHEN YOU WERE YOUNG

CAPTURED IN THE SONGS YOU SUNG

FREED YOUR HEART TO LAUGH AND PLAY

REMINDERS OF A FORMER DAY

SO NOW YOU LOOK THROUGH OPEN EYES

TO ASK THE HOWS, THE WHENS, THE WHYS

TO SEARCH THE WORLD TO FIND YOUR PART

AND FREE THE DREAMS WITHIN YOUR HEART

- Robert Longley

the Bell...

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...continued

Then I went up the river, there i saw a temple.
The river was flooded and the temple was in water.
Above the water I could only see the bell.

I asked the river, What happened?,
She said,
When you are happy, the sun shines bright.
When you are sad, tears rain down the earth.
And you were so sad...

You have to understand,that you are important
and how you feel does make a difference.
if the sun shines too bright, earth will be a desert,
and if it rains too heavy, there will be a flood.
It is the balance and it is the change, that keeps going the circle of life.

I asked the bell, why are you here, when my GOD is in water?
She said,I am not just a bell, but I am your faith.

You have to hold me high,
so that the world has to drown, before drowning your faith...

the way...

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I saw a lizard,
it came from the desert,
I asked, "What are you doing here in the lush greens?"

He said,
I am an omen sent for you,
I am here to tell you this,

"Nothing lasts forever, nothing is permanent.
Change is life and change is the way

So dont be afraid, even these days will go...

Even in desert there exists an oasis,
and even in lush greens a mind can be deserted...

....and even the desert was once the sea..."

At Peace...

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Swordsmanship's first achievement is the unity of man and sword
Once this unity is attained even a blade of grass can be a weapon

The second achievement is when the sword exists in one's heart
when absent from one's hand
One can strike an enemy at 100 paces
even with bare hands

Swordsmanship's ultimate achievement
is the absence of the sword
in both hand and heart
The swordsman is at peace
with the rest of the world
He vows not to kill and to bring peace to mankind

- Jet Lee in the movie HERO

iDea...

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An idea is like a strange little mystical kid.
It stays in the corner all the day, idling, staring at us,
expecting that when the right moment comes,
we will seize it,play with it, hold it, flex it, bend it, topple it and in some or the other way love it.
When born, the ideas are miniature. Just a concept.
We nurture them, we love them. In some way they are expression of our own self.
We take care of them, improve them, teaching them according to our past experiences.
Initially, we are afraid to send them out into the open.
But they grow and mature. They become bold and like a proud parent, we push them into the big, bad world.
There they aquire life of their own. Then somewhere they get mixed up with other similar ideas and make friends, what we call as innovation.
They marry to ideas they feel they are comfortable with and eventually give birth to what we call the future.

grass n water...

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Some time back I read 'the Island Walkers', John Bemrose. Nice book.
Recently I read Iris Murdoch - 'The Green Knight' and 'the Bell'.
Both are amazing novels.
The characters seem so real...after finishing the book i couldnt grasp that they are just not real.

In The Green Knight, Moy, a teenage character, wants to be an artist.
She collects stones, she paints. She is sensitive, and so also vulnerable, delicate.
She lives in her own world, pretty similar to mine.

Somewhere in the novel she thinks -
Why do i collect stones...
Dont they also have their own destiny?
When i bring them home from the wild,
may be they miss the winds, the rains,
the dust, the grass.
Perhaps wild is their true home and other stones their friends,
do i have a right to interfere with their destiny?

Incidentally, at the end of novel Moy says -
when i turn 18, maybe i will go to India
where people believe that everything that exists has life
and every thing, though even small, is important...

well...may be thats why...i am in india... n i am happy :-)

Butterfly...

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Butterfly, oh butterfly, why do you hide in the shadows?
Spread wide your wings, let your heart sing
And come dance with me in the meadow

Butterfly, oh butterfly, why do you fear?
You'll never stray, I'll lead the way
Just follow the path, I'll be near

Butterfly, oh butterfly, have you no hope?
Drink of the sun, our life's just begun
Thro time's hills and valleys we'll lope

Butterfly, oh butterfly, dare you to dream?
On our hearts we depend, shall we follow the wind
And consign to the fates grander scheme?

---Sheri Walters

i, me, myself...

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Hi guyz :D!!

...i have nothing to write here...

Your suggestions are welcome...

Satyamaev Jayate...

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A letter written by Abraham Lincoln to his son's teacher-

He will have to learn,
I know, that all men are not just,
all men are not true.
But teach him also that for every scoundrel
there is a hero;
that for every selfish Politician,
there is a dedicated leader...

Teach him for every enemy there is a friend,
Steer him away from envy,
if you can, teach him the secret of quiet laughter.
Let him learn early that the bullies are the easiest to lick...
Teach him, if you can, the wonder of books...
But also give him quiet time to ponder
the eternal mystery of birds in the sky,
bees in the sun, and the flowers on a green hillside.

In the school teach him it is far honourable
to fail than to cheat...
Teach him to have faith in his own ideas,
even if everyone tells him they are wrong...
Teach him to be gentle with gentle people,
and tough with the tough.

Try to give my son the strength
not to follow the crowd
when everyone is getting on the band wagon...
Teach him to listen to all men...
but teach him also to filter
all he hears on a screen of truth,
and take only the good that comes through.

Teach him if you can,
how to laugh when he is sad...
Teach him there is no shame in tears,
Teach him to scoff at cynics
and to beware of too much sweetness...

Teach him to sell his brawn and brain
to the highest bidders
but never to put a price-tag on his heart and soul.

Teach him to close his ears to a howling mob
and to stand and fight if he thinks he's right.
Treat him gently, but do not cuddle him,
because only the test of fire makes fine steel.

Let him have the courage to be impatient...
let him have the patience to be brave.
Teach him always to have sublime faith in himself,
because then he will have sublime faith in mankind.

This is a big order, but see what you can do...
He is such a fine fellow, my son!

Thats the way it is

I can read your mind and I know your story
and I see what you're going through yeah
It's an uphill climb, and I'm feeling sorry
But I know it will come to you yeah
So don't surrender 'cause you can win
In this thing called love

When you want it the most there's no easy way out
When you're ready to go and your heart's left in doubt
Don't give up on your faith
Love comes to those who believe it
And that's the way it is

When you question me for a simple answer
I don't know what to say, no
But it's plain to see, if we stick together
You're gonna find the way, yeah
So don't surrender 'cause you can win
In this thing called love

When life is empty with no tomorrow
And loneliness starts to call
Baby don't worry, forget your sorrow'
Cause love's gonna conquer it all, all

-Celine Dion

You are my sanctuary

Who needs the sun, when the rain's so full of life
Who needs the sky, when the ground's open wide
It's here in your arms I want to be buried
You are my sanctuary

Who needs a smile, when a tear's so full of love
Who needs a home, with the stars up above
It's here in your heart I want to be carried
You are my.......

Who needs the light, with the darkness in your eyes
Who needs to sleep, with the stars in the sky
It's here in your soul I want to be married
You are my.......

And the earth was void and empty
And darkness was upon the face of the earth
Is all of this pain so necessary
You are my.......

Surely whoever speaks to me in the right voice
Him or her I shall follow
As the water follows the moon, silently

- Madonna

Vast...

Photos - Endevourme

“I was like a boy playing on the sea-shore, and diverting myself now and then
finding a smoother pebble or a prettier shell than ordinary,
whilst the great ocean of truth lay all undiscovered before me.”

-Sir Issac Newton

Criss-Cross...

i took this few days back...


















i found this yesterday...















Rings any bells.......?.........

confusion

I work in open environment. I prefer to handle people than the other way round.
Some situations are 'difficult'.I use reserved weapons for this, like - 'confusion'.

I imagine that all other people have intelligence of a 3 year old.
You have to play this like a game & drive them to confusion.

Say something and after two minutes change meaning of what you said.

Induce conflicts. Make vague statements.

Hop topics. Agree a concept and then fight against it.

Stare at people blankly.

Scribble strange numbers in your diary.

Make sounds like 'mmm' or 'hmmm...'.which can mean anything.

Tip for biginners -
If you are in a group,divide the group you are discussing into two parts.
Left side people, right side people.
For first 5 minutes agree to 'whatever' is said by lefts,
after 5 minutes agree to 'whatever' is said by rights.

It helps.

-Asmita

PS: Endevourme is occupied and will post soon. I have suggested him to write some spiritual stuff. u know he is good at that and i envy him for being so much mentally balanced.

Good/bad/ugly

I am a brainy person.
I manipulate people.

My intentions are always good, i never hurt them in doing so.

Emotional intelligence is God's gift, I utilize it 'properly'.
What is 'proper' is relative, so i find my own meanings.

After all,
if people dont know what is good for them,
a ruler is better than democracy...
-Asmita

Genius

Albert Einstein was a physisist, a mathematician, a thinker and lot more.
Ein-stein literally means "one stone".
Some of his quotes -

Everything that can be counted does not necessarily count; everything that counts cannot necessarily be counted.

A perfection of means, and confusion of aims, seems to be our main problem.

Do not worry about your difficulties in Mathematics. I can assure you mine are still greater.

A table, a chair, a bowl of fruit and a violin; what else does a man need to be happy?

God does not care about our mathematical difficulties. He integrates empirically.

Politics is for the present, but an equation is for eternity.

Few are those who see with their own eyes and feel with their own hearts.

I do not know with what weapons World War 3 will be fought, but World War 4 will be fought with sticks and stones.

If the facts don't fit the theory, change the facts.

Insanity: doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results.

Keep on sowing your seed, for you never know which will grow - perhaps it all will.

Look deep into nature, and then you will understand everything better.

Einstein was attacked by some with anti-Jewish leanings. When a pamphlet was published entitled "100 Authors Against Einstein",Einstein retorted "If I were wrong, one would be enough."

About uncertainty principle he said,"God does not play dice with the world".
-Asmita

My motto

Made weak by time and fate,

but strong in will,

To strive,

To seek,

To find,

and NOT to yield.

-Alfred, Lord Tennyson

Lost...

hi guyz!
I showed my blog to one of my friends(?) Asmita.
She said i am not maintaining this place 'properly',and lot of 'creative things' can be put here.
We argued a lot, and it was decided that we will have a TT match,and whoever wins, will have the blog.
I LOST :-(
so now the blog belongs to her.I will be able to do posts here 'with her permission'.
mmm...ya,
she also happens to be one of my beeesssttt friend :D!!

Happy blogging!

Sky...

I was at this beautiful place a few days back. Just a small trip.
The atmosphere was loving and nurturing.
Clear open blue sky, with small clouds floating around.
It was airy. I was literally gulping fresh wind. Watching trees, walking on grass.






















There was a plane going high in the sky, leaving behind white line of cloud.
I could even see shadow of this line of cloud on real white clouds floating below.






















I was really in sync with the atmosphere.
Wide, Open, Positive and Powerful...

















This beauty made me surrender. Mind was really open and receptive, just like sky above.
Suddenly while looking at the sky, i felt an urge to say 'sorry'.
Firstly i didnt understand 'to whom' and 'why'.
Then i felt that....maybe....... i havent really forgiven myself.

Needs...

Photo by - Endevourme

4 years back. Our society is located outside the city. A society of independent houses with around 600 plots. Some people have built houses, but most of the plots are still empty. Once the so called manager of the society did some blunder with electricity bills, and put out electricity of our society for fifteen days.

After initial fighting-shouting, we were face to face with the problem. Managing life without electricity! No TV, no fans, no lights, darkness... Our problems started with television. We couldnt watch movies, favourite serials, mom couldnt see recepies, afternoon lunch time programs etc etc .Here I was on holidays, with nothing to spend my time. No lights, means mom had to cook diner in advance. We had to go erly to sleep, without fans, when mosquitoes are hovering around. Fortunately there was enough water, just we had to pull it out everyday from tank outside.
All these seeming like troubles lasted for around four days. After that we started getting used to this lifestyle. As there was no TV, we started talking more in our family. We started going more to our terrace, have walks there, chatting and talking. I picked up my old habit of reading. I started enjoying sitting in the corridor outside. Reading books, drinking tea or lemon juice. I started getting more aware of what was happening around, watching people passing by and observing everything around and also our neighbours as well.
Things started feeling more serene soon. Life gradually become slower. Slowly, with this, the noise levels in my mind were coming down too. I realized there were so many different kinds of birds that came around and realized how refreshing fresh air can be.
Darkness seemed a problem only initially, later to realize that sunight is unmeasurably better than electric lights. Natural soft light flowing through curtains, and it was like retuning to natural rhythm of day and night. We used to sleep erly at around 9 at night. No more watching TV at night and no artificial lights to burden our eyes. We used to communicate more amongst ourselves, touching new and fresh topics which we erlier missed somehow. This awareness and little bit of isolation from artificiality helped me focus more on what we had. Like i started to appreciate that we had enough water, and understood its value. Somehow if we get everything effortlessly, we dont appreciate what we get. We need a drama, and we create needs, virtual needs and we try to satisfy ourselves with them. We extend our needs from food,shelter,clothing to cellphone, PC, i-pod, TV, blogs, mails, onsite trips...the list is endless. We want what others have, or maybe we want what others want. We have become like flock of sheeps, dumb sheeps, they dont know where they are going, what they know is just to follow others. We create needs, maybe they satisfy us, but we need listen to ourselves when pleasure turns to dependency.
Yes, electricity, TV, cellphones etc are necessory, but these things have their own place. And they cannot replace other things which are more natural and more human, like communication in a family, and our connection with the surroundings. Maybe that is one reason why people in old times seem more serene and sane than we are.
Finally after some settlements the electricity came back....and i mentally thanked the person who invented the ON/OFF switch.